There is a front coming in tonight. Clouds are moving low and fast, the wind is howling around corners, as the temperature drops like a rock. Spring and fall bring this kind of barometer-bouncing weather. Worst of all, the horses are acting unsettled as the atmosphere. There is a name for this kind of weather, but I don’t like to say it out loud. If you have horses you know it too. It’s colic weather. Knock wood…
I got sad news from a friend this week- she lost her good mare. Colic is still the number one killer of horses. I notice that news of colic brings on colic-like symptoms in me. My gut clinches, I can’t eat, and my heart beats fast. It used to bring feelings of fear and sadness-but as years pass, most of us have more colic experience than we want. Now I seize up in a rage against colic, but I might as well spit into the wind. Know the feeling?
Awe is the word that best describes what I feel about horses. Awe is defined as a mixed emotion of reverence, respect, dread, and wonder inspired by authority, genius, or great beauty. In spite of spending hours every day with horses, I am constantly awe struck by them- spell bound by their intellect and humor, by their strength and physicality, by their breath on my cheek. Know this feeling too?
Part of the awe of horses is their fragility also. From their first steps on wobbly knees and rubbery hooves to the geriatric years of sway backs and useless teeth, everyday we have with them is a kind of victory over the impossibility of their beauty and frailty. The awe becomes an addiction.
I threw some extra hay for the cold tonight, and checked for evidence of the full range of bodily functions. Cohabiting with colic is part of the price of admission to any barn and as I finish the night check, I think about all the good horses gone too soon. They are still part of my herd.
Opening your heart to a horse is choosing to make your love greater than your fear- in a dozen ways. If he passes, the hole left in your heart will eclipse the world for a while- until the memory of heart-felt awe overcomes the loss. The beauty of a horse is the sum of his bravery and vulnerability. Maybe that beauty is what we hope to emulate.
Anna Blake, www.AnnaBlakeTraining
(Photo: Dodger, gone three years.)
9 thoughts on “Weathering Colic”
Beautifully written and echoes in my heart as well. We lost our beloved 26 year old gelding Amos to colic a couple years ago, and that is an experience I never want to have again but with eight aging horses in the barn, it is bound to.
You are absolutely right. Our weather storm arrived midnight last night but the colic arrived two days early. First an older guy, about 20. Thankfully his was a mild case and as I write he is back to normal little old man grouch. Yesterday morning the second case a 9-year-old mare a lot sicker than the first. Morning after the storm she is better but not 100%. Play the waiting game for another 24-48 hours. Good news, no one sick this morning.
Crossing fingers and hooves for you and your herd. The waiting game is slow…
I love reading your blog! I lost my mare of 25 years to colic about 2 months ago. She was my big, beautiful, smart, courageous and yet in the end so very fragile, girl.
Sad to lose a partner of so many years…She sounds like a very good girl.